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[16 Jan 2006|07:56pm] |
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Whats up, chikadees? Gosh, I havent updated this bad boy in a while!
Well, Ive recently discovered the sheer bliss of MySpace. I used to dog it and raise cane over all its whores, but now look, I'm one too! If anyone out there wants to add me go to http://www.myspace.com/xyummy_yamsx
Check it out cause Rebel Keith said so!
OH EM GEE LYKE WHOA I LOVE LYKE FRANKIE LYKE OH EM GEEEZZZ!
See ya later!
<3Ash
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[30 Dec 2005|12:00pm] |
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Franklin---If by some fate you happen to stumble upon my journal, I just want you to know that Im not pissed at you and I didnt stand you up Tuesday night. Im grounded for a lil while, so please dont forget me!!!!
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| Deja Vu maybe? |
[26 Dec 2005|04:52pm] |
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anonymous: well
anonymous: i was lonley
anonymous: and i knew you would
anonymous: i need something to do #2
anonymous: and 3
anonymous: i was high
sound familiar?
and all i asked him was why he chose me anyways....
not the answer i was expecting.
Wow.
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[26 Dec 2005|05:00am] |
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My Town---Armor For Sleep |
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I miss colin....
cant wait til tuesday! woot woot!
***Tracing the plot finds skin touching skin
absence follows***
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| Amazing what a birthday can do to ya... |
[25 Dec 2005|01:40pm] |
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I know not what I do.......... |
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Haligh Haligh A lie Haligh--Bright Eyes |
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Wow. I cant beleive this. Im slowly becoming what I told myself Id never be. Theres so many peopl in this county that hate me now, over careless mistakes Ive made and apologized for. Now all this shit has came back and bit me in the ass. Theres a lot of people I want to personally apologize to. This doesnt mean I necessarily love you, I just need to get some things off my lil' mind...
Hannah-Wow, we've kinda started to drift apart. I remember in 6th and 7th grade we'd call eachother on friday and saturday nights and wouldnt hang up until 5 hours later. What happened to that? I havent talked to ya on the phone nowadays for more than 30 minutes. Damn. If I havent been there for you or something Im really sorry. I dont wanna lose your friendship..
Joseph-Damn, I was a pretty crappy girlfriend. Sorry I didnt make a bigger effort to call ya and come see you. Remember that talk we had about first love and how it hurts to let go? I just want you to know that that was probally one of the deepest conversations Ive ever had with someone. <3
Chip-Point blank, Ive just been plain ol' distant lately. I dearly apologize. Youre still one of my best guy friends.
Michael-Yeh yeh, I know....you dont care. This isnt a plee for forgiveness, I just wanted you to know that whatever youve heard Im sorry for and I wish we could just have one last talk. The things I shared with you I never before had shared with anyone. You were the first person I ever talked to about my relationship with my mom, you were the first person I ever loved, and you were the one that changed me.... yes Michael, I changed since you've been gone, in both good and bad ways. Nevertheless, I owe it all to you..the good things that is, the bad things I owe to myself for being the bitch/whore/slut/twat that I am. Even though you only said "I love you" when you were high, I just want you to know that I honestly meant it, from the bottom of my heart. I dont understand whats keeping you from forgiving me, but I accept it. Ive gone thru guys like peanut butter since youve been gone, and I'll continue to do so until I find someone who touches my heart and makes me smile like you did. I'm still waiting for someone who will love me like kittens, and that I'll love like puppies. Good luck with life, Michael...thats all I have left to say.
Eddie-Gah! I havent seen you since like August when you took me home from school. Thanks for coming to my sweet sixteen, its nice to feel the touch of someone who's still the same.....
Chase-What the hell happened to you?
Colin-Baby, whats going on? I havent spoken to you in like 3 days, and when I did it was for like 15 minutes...<33333
Jordan-Hell, you thought I was fucking dead?
God-Im sorry. Ive lied, cheated, questioned your faith, shunned my parents orders, drank, done drugs, skipped church to do ungodly things, you know the rest. You've blessed me so much and this is how I thank you? Ive tried to change, you know I have. I traded Michael's love for another shot at myself, and its only made me worse. Ive got good intentions, but I like to watch myself hurt. Its complicated, but I know you understand. Times running out for me, or so I learned the hard way. Im scared to die God. Im scared to shit death. I pray everynight to bleed, so the disease will go away, but it doesnt. It doesnt come. I was supposed to be a mother, a teacher, a bride...and now thats never gonna happen. Who wants to marry a seedless whore? I wouldnt, and I could name 5 people off the top of my head that wouldnt want to either. I cant sleep again, and my pills have dissapeared and Im broke so I cant buy anymore. Coach Willets gone and Mr More left a long time ago, so theres no one to talk to. Im not the same and I hate it. I hate love, never want to love like I did again. I hate hate hate HATE it! But this is the part where I;ll exchange love for change, and make a promise that if I change you'll give me the love back. And I will change. For only a few days. Then I'll turn back into a whore and lie to ya, and love will slip farther and farther away from me, like always. I'm sorry.
If Ive pissed you off and failed to apologize, Im sirry to you too.
Ashley Michelle Huke
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| Happy Birthday Sweet Sixteeeeennnnn! |
[23 Dec 2005|01:57pm] |
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Well, my party went well. It was a bigger success than I thought it would be, even though my VIP girls were practicly dead in the limo. And although my boyfriend didnt show...but I still had a pretty kick ass time, cause Eddie and Brad were there, so it was like old times again. Also, Drews little strip tease and my dances with Matt werent to bad either.
Got my el permitadora.
Gay in spanish is "joto (hoe-tow)" cause Danny told me so!
LOVE ALWAYS THE ONE AND ONLY HOOKER!
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[11 Nov 2005|07:51pm] |
Damn. Why does everything have to be like this. Im tired of fucking fighting with ppl. I just want everything back to normal, like last year....but unfortunatley it doesnt work like that.
But anyways....my sweet is at the JCs(2 lazy to spell it out lol) building December 20th. I havent yet decided on a time frame yet or anything, but its gonna be great. All Systems Go and a bunch of other ppl are gonna be there to...so you should come....and eat cake with me! lol well im gonna go get intoxicated. SLATER!
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| WOW! I went lyric post crazy! |
[08 Oct 2005|07:27pm] |
Failure By Design---Brand New
Watch you, on the one's and two's.
Through a window in a well lit room.
Become a recluse.
And I blame myself cause I make things hard and your just trying to help.
And when I wake up, your the first to call.
This is one more late night basement song.
And I'm so sore, my voice has gone to hell, and this is one more sleepless
night,
Because we don't believe in filler baby.
If I could I'd sit this out.
(This is over when I say it's over.)
This is a lesson in procrastination.
I kill myself because I'm so frustrated.
And every single second that I put it off, means another lonely night I got
to race the clock.
(I ignore it and it ignores me too.)
What say we go and crash your car?
And every time I leave you go and lock the door.
So I walk myself picking at a chip on my shoulder, I'm another day late and
one year older.
it's failure by design.
And we just want sleep, but this night is hell.
I'm sick and sunk and I blame myself because I make things hard and your
just trying to help.
I got no gas,I'm winding out my gears.
This is one more day on the verge of tears.
And now my head hurts and my health is a joke.
And now I got to stop cause the headphones broke.
And we don't believe in filler.
Baby, if I could I'd sit this out.
(This is over, when I say it's over.)
This is a lesson in procrastination.
I kill myself because I'm so frustrated.
And every single second that I put it off, means another lonely night I
gotta race the clock.
(I ignore it and it ignores me too)
What say we go and crash your car?
And every time I leave you go and lock the door.
And I walk myself picking at a chip on my shoulder.
I'm another day late and one year older, it's failure by design.
I'm out of everything.
No one sleeps until we get this shit out on the shelves.
It's late, I'm faltering.
but this time I got nothing to say besides...
DO DO DO, DO DO DO
(baby i'm better than this)
(This is over, when I say it's over.)
This is a lesson in procrastination.
I kill myself because I'm so frustrated.
And every single second that I put it off, means another lonely night I
gotta race the clock.
(I ignore it and it ignores me too)
What say we go and crash your car?
And every time I leave you go and lock the door.
And I walk myself picking at a chip on my shoulder.
I'm another day late and one year older, i'm a failure by design.
Get Well Soon---Reggie and the Full Effect
You've got a lot to learn before I let you go
There's thing you need to see and things you need to know
They say we won't make it
What do they know
They say we can't do it
But I got to know
[Chorus]
And is it getting better
Is it getting worse
Was it ever worth it
Was it just a curse
And is it getting better now
And is it getting better now
You've got a lot to do before I let you stay
There's things you need to see and things you need to say
They say we won't make it
What do they know
They say we can't do it
But I got to know
[Chorus]
And is it getting better
Is it getting worse
Was it ever worth it
Was it just a curse
And is it getting better
Is it getting worse
Was it ever worth it
Was it just a curse
And is it getting better now
And is it getting better now
You always talk too much, too little, too late
Too much, too little, too late for me to figure out
You always talk too much, too little, too late
Too much, too little, too late for me to figure out
I still can't figure out
[Chorus]
And is it getting better
Is it getting worse
Was it ever worth it
Was it just a curse
And is it getting better
Is it getting worse
Was it ever worth it
Was it just a curse
And is it getting better now
And is it getting better now
(And is it getting better now)
And is it getting better now
The Ghost of You---MCR
I never said I’d lie in wait forever
If I died, we'd be together now
I can’t always just forget her
But she could try
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever, ever, ever
Get the feeling that you’re never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs, in my arms she dies
She dies
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me
If I fall
If I fall (down)
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna
Creep---Radiohead
When you were here before, couldn't look in your eye
You're just like an angel, your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so FUCKIN' special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't care if it hurts, I want to have control
I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice, when I'm not around
You're so FUCKIN' special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here, ohhh ohhhh
She's running out the door....
She's running out, she run, run, run, run....run....
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so FUCKIN' special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
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Only---NIN |
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Wow.....my GPAs almost high enough for Ateam. Beware! MWHAHAHAHAHA!
Yeh thats about all thats up with me right now. Im just sitting here in study hall skipping like usual.
Im out guys, gotta work on Eng 10 ACC homework I didnt do last night. EEEK!
Love always
**The One And Only Hooker!**
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[07 Sep 2005|12:48pm] |
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Wow. Its been a while.
.....come here often?!
YAY!
Less concerned about fitting into your world.
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| I wish everything about the danger wouldnt make you such a stranger! |
[21 Aug 2005|07:14pm] |
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What The Hell Is Stipulation---Reggie and the Full Effect |
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I feel theres hope, once again. Now I dunno if i should wait for him or move on. I just want him back so bad, and i wish he felt the same for me. Maybe if i keep praying God will grant me my miracle. I wish he'd hurry up....
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[17 Aug 2005|06:29pm] |
back stabbing mother fucker
burn in hell
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| Oh woman you must be brave.... |
[17 Aug 2005|05:20pm] |
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Congrats Smak and Katy---Reggie and the Full Effect |
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Well, my lifes not ruined yet.....so hit me with your best shot, baby. Lets see how far you get!
Yeh, its weird not having him around. But my God, Im so damn pathetic its not even funny anymore. Besides, I like Mystery Boy...and things are looking pretty good from what I can see!!!
Aint cha happy for me?!?!
Going blonde here pretty soon...yippee!
Kiss Hooker goodbye, Im fixen to be a whole new Ashley-Michelle!
<3 Hooker <3
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| I wanted to unite the city and the sea....... |
[11 Aug 2005|09:22pm] |
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The most touching song ever. From the bottom of my heart, this has been the first song Ive ever really related to.
City In The Sea by Scatter The Ashes
She covered me warm
And he hangs his head in grace
The devoted meets the blasphemous
Oh woman you must be brave
For the both of us
Oh woman you must be brave
Fire out your faith and trust
I wanted to unite the city and the sea
And at last make our lives complete
She covered me warm
And he hangs his head in grace
The devoted meets the blasphemous
Oh woman you are not to blame
I have nothing left to loathe
Oh woman you are not to blame
I felt as black as your lie
I wanted to unite the city and the sea
and at last make our lives complete
I wanted to unite the city and the sea
Oh my gosh!...if that cd had a penis i would SOOOO do it!
<3333 Hooker
somebodys making me really happy....
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| Yes Michael Nowlin, its registered....were thru.... |
[10 Aug 2005|04:47pm] |
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Out Of Control---Rufio |
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Talked to him last night. It was great. Hes an incredible person. But were over. Yeh, its sad. But atleast I can be his friend. Cause hes and incredible person.
Drugs arent so bad after all....
yeh, im out.
<333 Hooker
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| Damn Im horny..... |
[24 Jul 2005|05:48pm] |
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Everything I Once Had----The Honorary Title |
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Love sucks ass, thats why Im not in it anymore.
Actually I am....but thats never gonna happen again. Im to much of a baby. Im a bitch. Im pathetic. I call him every 5 minutes. I have guy friends. I care about him. I love him. I miss him. I cant sleep. Im in love. I dont wanna be in love. I dont wanna lose him. Im not pretty enough. Im not the girl for him. I was faithful. I never lied. Im a new person. Im a baby. Im a bitch. Im Ashley. And boy, doesnt it suck to be me!?!
Hmmmmm.....boy Filet O Fish Sundays really smell bad!
Im still in love yall........someone come get me out of it!!!!!!!
<3 Hooker
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| Marc Time Marc! |
[20 Jul 2005|04:44pm] |
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Bleeding Mascara--Atreyu (yuck! I HATE Atreyu!!) |
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Wow. Band camp sucks you-know-what this year. I dunno why cause last year it was like the best dang thing ever and now its like...uggg! Theres no words to describe it!!!
Talked to Michael lately. Yeh, not much to say about that lol. I just wish things would change. Or atleast I wish something BIG would happen so I could finally get an answer/idea about how things are gonna turn out between us. Cause I mean, I never did anything to hurt him. I never ran my mouth behind his back, never cheated on him, never lied to his face/over the phone/internet/etc. Lets see, I loved him with all my ehart and soul and never even had the thought of anyone else. He made me so happy and now Im just miserable, sitting here thinking about all the memories were throwing away, and begging God to just LET ME LOVE HIM!
Anyways....
Thats all. TTYL!
<3 **Hooker**
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[17 Jul 2005|07:17pm] |
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Wow. I swear the Allen County Fair can work miracles.
Ive never really realized this before. Its funny too, history repeating itself. And how come all of a sudden I see all these happy couples happy? Shouldnt I be part of a happy couple?
Id date a fucking monkey if it meant taking my mind of you.
I think Im in way to deep, and I dont know how to get out of it.
Sometimes love can leave you blind......I just wanna sign of whats gonna happen to us.
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From The Tops Of Trees---Scatter The Ashes |
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Well,got back from like the most suck-ass-piss-cunt-face vacation ever. But I did meet this really cool guy named Shandon. But thats about it.
Talked to Michael last night. It was so weird cause I havent had the never to talk to him in like a week.
Well, thats all folks. I hope you enjoyed wasting your time to read this pointless and boring post!
<3 Hooker
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| Get it right, Im holding on to a thing here... |
[09 Jul 2005|10:51am] |
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Goodness, feels like forever since ive updated.
Nothings happened thats worth talking about I guess, except my little heart got broken into like 5 million pieces, but its healing. But im not gonna talk about that anymore.
Went to that gay-ass redneck tractor pull last night. lol the only reason I went was because I needed to get out of the house. Well, it helped. I felt a lil bit better, until I got in the car and was coming home and turned the radio on and BAM! Car Underwater was on, so I sat there in the Jr Foods parking lot trying to keep everything of my mind. Then I turned around and someone was at my window! It was Heather! And Lexi! I had to fill them in on everything. They gave me hugseses and then I saw KC and Chelsey. Then I left and went home and was about to keel over from the 4 sleeping pills I took before I went to that whatever its called. Then I got up at like 10 something this morning. Im home alone and feeling like crap. O well.
NOTE TO KC AND OTHER WHAP STUDENTS: Whens that study group were supposed to be having gonna take place? lol Craig never told me when. All I know is that its at the library!!
Got that Armor For Sleep cd the other day. Wal*mart had it...skeery. So I told myself "better get it here instead of somewhere else cause this is cheapest its gonna get." So I bought it and its like freaking awesome! lol. It makes me feel better. And Ben is like.....shew dont get me started! haha
Well Im out guys. Have a nice remainder of the summer!
::Hooker::
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